| Well... I can say it's been an intresting year. It's always so funny to me how quickly things change and how drastically people change. Or maybe people arent changing, maybe people are finally being themselves. I guess this is an advantage for me...in a way. I'm finally purging my life. I guess that sounds a little harsh, purging people. But you know what? That's life. I dont feel the need to keep anyone in my life that i would consider a Liar, Jealous, Hypocrites, says things behind my back etc. etc. You know, those type of people your parents tell you to stay away from when your a little kid? those people that you swear to your parents none of your "friends" are. But most of the time, unknowingly, its the people we surround ourselves with. What a terrible thought! But it's true. How many time have we been betrayed or backstabbed by someone? And 9 times out of 10 we let those same people back in our lives? And again, you are hurt, and again we allow them to be in our lives. WHy? We all know repitition is a sign of stupidity, so why do we do it?  I'm dumbfounded. I think, maybe in the past i've always felt i had to forgive. But... i dont know... As of lately i really don't want to...i mean, if someone doesn't like me for who i am, why should i waste my time with them? I'm okay with people not understanding me, that's okay, but if your going to come up with your own conclusions about my life, that you clearly know nothing about..or if your going to attack my character without really knowing me. Then...go for it..but don't expect me to EVER want to be around you. That is not a friendship i need in my life. I just don't need or want that. So don't be offended when i don't seem intrested in you, when you've already offended me. And you know it's funny. It really is so comical that anything can turn into something so negative and another reason to judge. Like something as simple as a relationship. This can be any kind of realtionship, a romantic one or even something as simple as a best friend. But it's whatever, because I can thankfully say i have both of those  And both of these people have chosen to stay in my life for whatever reason. I never have to TRY with either of these people, my realtionship just happens and its real because i don't ask much of these people, just to be themselves because well that's the people i love, and by being themselves they allow me to be myself too. It really is a BEAUTIFUL thing and it's a shame people distort that to make themselves feel better about themselves. Maybe they just dont have any fullfilling realtionships in their lives, and that is SUCH a damn fucking shame. Because i really don't ever want to be without these people because having them around makes my life so much brighter :) They are kinda like my Rainbows among oh-so-many clouds (as corny as that may sound) Rain always has a negative condontation to it, always seen as gloomy and sad but after the rain, even when the sun can't get through those heavy clouds, there is always a rainbow that manages to shine through and brighten my day. Through all the madness there is always those people that can make me smile with just a look. Those people i share evrything with..laughs, make up, beds, future homes, stories, hoope earings, evil thoughts, clothes, siblings, laughs, parents, books, secrets, roadtrips, dreams, hopes, food, questions, shoes....and the list goes on. And i think you know you have a real relationship with someone when you dont really worry anymore if your going to be in eachothers futures, you kinda just know now, we know.  And you can try to change that... But you cant, it's a wasted effort and it's
kinda funny to watch you try All your doing is burning bridges.  To be Continued...
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